SET LIST Purim Primer 2022
A few PURIM POETRY BURSTS
Dear seekers of the endless flow----feel the flow of light that is beginning to seep into your soul---on these days of paisley print multi-colored double doses of everything ------and so many other things to occupy our bodies and souls -------from here until we just don't know anymore -----catch it while you can before the time fades away into memory ----subtle hints of history dance around our imagination with stories that reveal and conceal with equal intensity----showing us that nothing is happen-stance----it will outlast our lifetimes and all others to the end of time and beyond ----and the golden threads of miraculous memories tug at our collective consciousness histories -----can you feel the mysteries---intensities incarnate---knocking on our consciousness' garden gate---asking us to let it in ----so that we can begin again at this surreal time ------let the wine go in and the secrets come out---the secrets that will reveal who you are and who you can be ------and the bursts of Purim speak ------revelations of the visibility inside of invisibility ---will call into being the deepest yearnings that you ever imagined could possibly be----and the vastness of your imagination will set you on a course beyond space and time---and just one more glass of wine-----at this holy time-----will shine away all the darkness of your life
MEGILLA
Dear children of the ancient story---look inside of the words and listen to what your ancestors have heard—and what you can still hear---year after year ---the Megilla story—a classic story of the glory of overcoming impossibilities----but upon deeper reflection—the real intention is that this is your personal story –here and now-----and despite G-d's Holy name not being revealed in it even once---it's all the same to us---because G-d is peeking through the ups and downs and the topsy turvy turn-arounds---and letting us know that His compassion and His glory abounds—all around us—it can be found by every one of us---at the heart of our own story—all the time—look in between the lines and you will be sure to find Him there smiling at you ---Divine poetry at all times
DAWN
[**the phenomenon of Queen Esther the-Ayelet Hashachar**]
Dear children of the dawn---the darkest hour seems to be upon us ----the light of salvation seems to be just beyond us----but the promise that we've been promised –is that we can grasp this light –no matter how far it has gotten from us---and this is a promise that will never go away---a promise that though the darkest hour is just before the dawn----the dawn nevertheless will unfold as a brand new day---it is the stage of the eternal Purim play---it is the return to our root-guarantee---that turns Purn into the highest day that ever was or will ever be in all of HIStory---it's the promise that no matter how far we fall---G-d is always here to catch us all
THE BITTER SCREAM
[**'..and Mordechai let out a great and bitter scream..'*]
Dear children of the night –know this ---the multitude of haters who seek to make misery of your lives—they all will melt away by the warmth of the supernal light ---and despite what people say and despite evidence to the contrary---our light will never fade away---but One thing I do need to say is ---that to activate this eternal dream---you must begin the process by shouting a long and bitter scream---a scream that comes from the deepness of your life ----a scream that transcends all the evil schemes that seem to surround you day and night ---and just like in the Egyptian Exodus story ---and just like in the original Purim story ---G-d will hear your scream—just like He heard Mordechai's bitter scream---and then He will set into motion—everything ---the healing potion that will redeem you everytime---because He really hears your scream---and this is the first significant thing ---the initiating thing---the liberation thing---the most important thing---so scream SCREAM!!!----and everything else that has goodness and ultimate meaning is sure to follow
LIBERATING ALL THOSE SOULS
[**..in a mind state of 'not knowing' we can unwittingly liberate very high trapped souls..**]
***deep inside of our beings
there lies a world
repressed
and hidden from
consciousness
the deepest fears
are kept at bay here
the realizations
of pain and dark
temptation
lay hidden away here
the ability to see
and to unravel
the secret codes
of all the mysteries
are stored away here
those souls
who have no where else to go
stay chained up here.....
***and on one day
of the year
in a state of
complete
comatose
inebriation
without any
awareness
of
who or what
or how or when
we can almost accidentally
slip in
and in a state
of the most profound
not knowing
we can recite the counter intuitive words
that otherwise we would never make heard --
boldly showing this dark kingdom
that we're coming in
and in this sin-less state
we can liberate
all those souls
who would otherwise
have no other way out
and then we're free
to pass out
with a smile
at the tips of our
unconscious lips
WINE GOES IN SECRETS COME OUT
[**the numerical value of 'yayin'—ie..'wine'-- is 70—which is the numerical value of 'sod'—ie..'secret'---thus---wine goes in and secrets come out**]
***wine goes in secrets come out **the words we are able to convey on any given day are very often not what we really want to say **it was most likely meant to be that way to get us to think twice or three times what it is that we really want to say **but sometimes there is a better way a way which avoids the synapses of time of small mind-ed-ness that seems to plague us so much of the time **what I have in mind is wine that's right.... wine sometimes it helps you cut to the chase stop the games say what you mean to say at least on those special days **but even better than this is the feeling of bliss when you know that the dormant sayings that have been hibernating in your brain without knowing how to express them again are found hiding inside a cup of wine and all you have to do to get them to come out is to drink and then drink again because when wine goes in secrets come out
THE INVISIBLE MESSENGER
[**an ode to Our Rebbe Moshe--7th of Adar-Wed. night**]
***one of the messages sent to us constantly by Gd
is to step up selflessly and invisibly
and do what we're meant to do and the deepest , highest messenger
is the invisible Divine messenger
the one who's so unseen that all that can be seen
is the One who sent you
***Moses told G-d to send someone else a person of clear speech a person of fame and authority
a person whose presence will command a redemption
of international and eternal authority
dignity respect and fanfare
Me--what am i? I am nothing.
That's precisely why I want you , Gd told him.
Because when I deliver the people
into freedom and birth
as a nation and My witnesses on earth
, the world will say
it wasn't through a messenger or an Angel..
but rather Me alone in my glory
***see--the idea is like this;
when we let go and let G-d
We become G-d's right hand person
We become a channeler
of the Divine
Our will becomes fused with G-d's
and to become that kind of messenger
is to step up or rather to disappear
enabling Gd
to express to unfold
the perfect becoming
the becoming perfect
of this splendid World
THE POETRY OF THE INNER ESOTERIC ESSENCE OF THE PURIM STORY
Dear esoteric story tellers…..dear passionate glory makers…..the codes of time and space come together in this secret sacred place…… The Divine puppeteer is pulling the strings that bring together everything in splendid fashion …….a sublime light ---so subtle that those who blink might miss it----yet it's so pronounced, that it's radiant fragrance can be detected by the sensitive ones -----especially those who are beginning to detect their inner messianic senses…….and the evil one waits in ambushed readiness---- to pounce upon those who doubt that these esoteric shenanigans make any sense …….and we are a People who come alive in every sense---- and when the tale is told---the very same tale we have heard since the beginning of time—it never grows old ----------it just goes to show that it is much more than plots and subplots here that meet the eye---when it is actually you and I ----who are the true heroes and heroines of this ancient transparent esoteric lullaby----where the deceiver becomes
the receiver ---of all he intended to disrupt----because the Holy one inevitably interrupts the proceedings at just the right time and in just the right way-----"could there be any other way?" ----asks the perennial listener to the master story teller ----before the telling begins to reach whole new dimensions
NAHAFOCH HU REVERSAL OF REALITY
'many are the thoughts in man's heart
but the counsel of G-d will stand'
G-d had other plans;
a complete turnaround
a reversal of what is thought to be the natural order
because when we drink the wine
in the right way
at the right time
we will be able to find
that the secret of life
the secret of our souls
the secret of the seventys
is to know that we must strive to know all
but just beyond 7 is 8
and that is great
and just beyond seventy
the 'all' that we know
begins to disintegrate
and therefore
the more that we know
that we really don't know
[even what we seem to know]
The more that we can let it all go
and let the One Above
lead us down the road of life in love endless love
LIBERATING ALL THOSE SOULS
***deep inside of our beings
there lies a world repressed
and hidden from consciousness
the deepest fears are kept at bay here
the realizations of pain and dark temptation
lay hidden away here
the ability to see and to unravel
the secret codes of all the mysteries
are stored away here
those souls who have no where else to go
stay chained up here.....
***and on one day of the year
in a state of complete comatose inebriation
without any awareness
of who or what or how or when
we can almost accidentally slip in
and in a state of the most profound
not knowing
we can recite the counter intuitive words
that otherwise we would never make heard –
boldly showing
this dark kingdom
that we're coming in
and in this sin-less state
we can liberate
all those souls
who would otherwise
have no other way out
and then we're free to pass out
with a smile
at the tips
of our unconscious lips
READING THE ANCIENT STORY
**reading the ancient story full of suspense and glory
re-interpreted again and again
to show it's endless life applications
'and shed light and revelation
on how it's actually the story of our own lives
**and so we dive in deeper and deeper
year after year
and when we read it,
the lights hidden deep inside it,
all come to life
and cast an aura of light
the likes of which will not be otherwise seen
all the rest of the days of our lives
**and we must try to capture this sublime light
with gifts from our hearts
to open up other hearts
and with an elevation of the spirit
to allow us to peek into rarified portals
that we may never otherwise see
and to masquerade the real and non real parts of our beings
portraying to all who reach out
to see what they cannot otherwise see
**and thereby set ourselves free
to somehow taste of this banquet of impossible reality
on this day
and the whole year long
whenever we sing
the special song
that recalls this ancient story's place
in our day to day journey through space
and time down the mystery avenue
of this awesome life
HE SEES THINGS DIFFERENTLY
**the supernal worlds in their patterns
of high and low
and back and forth
and connection and disconnection
were the object of attention
of the wicked ones
in their attempt to direct the forces of fate
in such a way
that the forces of light
would have no way to escape
**and such are the designs
of the black magic practitioners
from the other side
when they set their eyes
on our downfall time after time
but just in the nick of time
the Holy One Blessed be He
from His benevolent hidden holy place
casts his eyes on their evil designs
right in the nick of time
and though these conniving sorcerers
knew how to manipulate the way
the Universe operates
The Holy One sees it all
in a different way
PURIM POETRY
WINE GOES IN SECRETS COME OUT
***wine goes in secrets come out
**the words we are able to convey on any given day
are very often not what we really want to say
**it was most likely meant to be that way
to get us to think twice or three times what it is
that we really want to say
**but sometimes there is a better way
a way which avoids the synapses of time
of small mind-ed-ness
that seems to plague us so much of the time
**what I have in mind is wine
that's right.... wine
sometimes it helps you cut to the chase
stop the games
say what you mean to say
at least on those special days
**but even better than this is the feeling of bliss
when you know that the dormant sayings
that have been hibernating in your brain
without knowing how to express them again
are found hiding inside a cup of wine
and all you have to do to get them to come out
is to drink
and then drink again
because when wine goes
in secrets come out
YOU HIDE YOUR FACE
You hide your Face We can't find you anywhere
You show your Face When we believe you're there
You hide your Face We are stripped of any sensation
You show your Face Inside the Letters of Creation
You hide your Face There's noone who can soothe
You show your Face In each and every move
You hide your Face We go looking for you near and far
You show your Face the more you're hidden the closer you are
You hide your Face We are numb --there is no feeling
You show your Face Hidden inside our pain is your healing
You hide your Face We play a game of hide and seek
You show your Face to the believers --to the humble and the meek
You hide your Face We walk in fear-we can't find you anywhere
You show your Face We are fearless when we know you are there
A PURIM PRAYER
Ribbono Shel Olam Master of the Universe
I sit here in your awesome presence On this Awesome day
The more that I contemplate The magnificent Grace
Of your Holy Face
The More I see you
In Your Hiding All over the Place
On this sublime day
It's not us who come to your habitation
It is You Who comes to visit us In the midst of our celebration
To those with eyes to see
You show yourself in every aspect Of our reality
At the beginning and end of words
In all the sights we see
And all the sounds that are heard
In the smiles of beautiful babies
In the yesses no-s and maybes
Of those we reach out to
It's really all You
And that's all that I want to do
All day long
Is to play Hide and seek with You
It's the only thing that rings true
There is nothing else That I'd rather do
There is no-one else in my World but You
And just before I sink into Unconsciousness
I do want You to know this;
I want to say thank You
For every breath that you allow me to breathe
For every sight that You allow me to see
For every feeling that You allow me to feel
For coming through for me every time
THE TREE OF LIFE
***The young seeker knows
that every word
includes all others
and that every word
has endless depth
and so ---never stops
seeking
revealing
***The illuminated Soul
lights up the way
in the dead of night
for all to see clearly
for all to proceed calmly
confidently
***The one with the constant smile
unattached to the things of this world
is treated constantly
to the deepest secrets
sharing them
with those
who can see
***The true listener
in pristine receptivity
hears in between the lines
of the book of life----
what was
what is
and what will be
*** The one who climbs
the Tree of Life
has no fear
of the unknown
or of the brokenness ---
and brings down
the fruits of eternity
wrapped up in simplicity
for all to see
A FEW GATEWAYS TO PARADISE
Dear humble seekers of the way to get back to the Garden….to walk straight through the separation and the polarization and immerse yourselves with heart and soul into Eden and turn it all into One again …She waits anxiously for you from within and from without …and she told me to tell you how much she misses you and awaits your reunion …and some poetry perhaps can show you which road to go on….or at least which roads to avoid to get there
WHAT IS PURIM??
[an MMM spontaneous perpective]
***Purim is a very holy day.
***Purim is lemalah, lemalah mi derech hatevah Above, Above nature .
***Purim comes after all the hope is lost.
***Purim is Atik Yamin.
Purim is a shift in making ourselves, into a whole new way of seeing. Purim is the parting of the red sea. Purim is making things happen that otherwise couldn’t be. Purim is Esther saying kaasher avaditi avaditi, if I am lost, I am lost, I give up my reality, I give up this world and the next world. Purim is macheni …. Moshe Rabeynu saying, wipe me out, wipe me out if you are not going to forgive these people, blot me out of Your book. Purim is chezkiyahu Hamelech.[King Ezekiel] Saying that though there is absolutely no hope in this situation Even if there is a sharp sword at the throat of a person ready to put them away, We don’t stop hoping for a better day.
***Purim is a time that is so high, so deep,
that even when all of the other hagim [Holidays]
and all the other sepharim [Holy Books] will no longerbe around-- Purim will be around.
***Purim is like Yom, Kipurim or rather--Yom Kippurim is like Purim [Yom {ki= like} Purim] These 2 very different holy of holy days converge; Just like we were forgiven and received the Torah on Yom Kipur so too on Purim. On the night following Yom Kipur we have a big seudah [meal] following a fast day before the day,of Purim we have a fast before the big seudah on Purim day.
***Purim is renewed receiving of the Torah out of love ...When a person says that I received the Torah out of love as we did and do on Purim, , all that they did wrong in the past becomes merit, becomes light, becomes joy, becomes a place for them to be And they completely change reality.
***Purim is reading Megilat Esther, revealing the hidden dimension,....Purim is opening up those hidden dimensions that wouldn’t otherwise have a way to reveal themselves, to show themselves. In the midst of a hidden reality, the light peeks in and we catch it. If you are open if you're completely mevutal- in a selfless place of receiving -- That light opens up for you a whole new reality. A place above above nature, a place of atik yamin,
***Purim is a place of kaasher avadati, avadati-- a A place of if i'm lost . i'm lost A place where a person never gives up, no matter what the situation , whatever will be , he\ she knows there is a little portal beyond that place, a portal of a miraculous reality, A portal of a transformative reality, a portal of a passionate reality
***Purim is a place of wiping out our arch enemy—Amalek---where our passion destroys our coldness, where our clarity of providence seeing overcomes our seeing that all is happenstance….where our seeing that all is connected wipes out our scattered seeing of reality
PURIM ESSENCE POINT MEDITATIONS
1A. KOL HAPOSHEIT YADO/ALL WHO EXTEND THEIR HAND
ASK FOR WHATEVER YOU WANT
Just like on Purim, anyone who extends their hand in prayer to Heaven receives whatever they ask for, so too now begin to ask for all the good things that you need and want in your life
1B. KOL HAPOSHEIT YADO../ALL WHO EXTEND THEIR HAND
GIVE UNCONDITIONALLY
Just like on Purim , anyone who extends their hand to receive charity from you receives it no matter who they are, so too now practice giving of yourself freely and unconditionally even in non-financial areas.
2A. MEGILLAT ESTHER/REVEALING THE HIDDEN
MASKS
Just like on Purim, the story of Esther teaches us that all the seeming non-G-dly characters and adventures are really all the revelation of G-d, and we commemorate this by wearing masks on Purim (reminding us that the Hand of G-d works through the masked characters and situations), so too now find all the hidden characters and desires inside of yourself, that for various reasons normally don’t get recognized, and allow them to come out and express themselves and demonstrate their important G-dly role in your total personality.
3. NICHNAS YAYIN, YOTZEI SOD/WINE GOES IN TRUTH COMES OUT
DEEPEST TRUTH
Just like on Purim, we get drunk on wine, and the Hebrew numerical values of yayin/wine and Sod/secret are equal to each other (70), showing that the wine brings out our deepest secret truths, so too now (even without the wine) practice reaching deep down inside of yourself to find and reveal your deepest truths.
4. AD DLO YADA/UNTIL YOU DON’T KNOW
NOT KNOWING
Just like on Purim, we are commanded to drink until we don’t the difference between good (‘Blessed is Mordechai) and evil (‘Cursed is Haman’), so too now, even without being drunkc ontemplate all of those areas of life that you just don’t know, and accept with happiness this ‘not knowing’ realm, both as a liberating place to be in and of itself (by knowing that what you know, you really don’t know), as well as a way to begin to know that what you don’t yet know.
5. V’NAHAFOCH HU/AND IT WILL BE A TURNAROUND
AMAZING IRONY HUMOUR
Just like on Purim, we see that the events of the story of Esther showed us that exactly the opposite of what was supposed to happen to us (a genocidem G-d forbid) really happened (an incredible miraculous redemption), so too now marvel at all of the amazing turnarounds of your past, present and projected future.
6. AMALEK= COINCIDENCE [MIKRE]
NOTHING IS COINCIDENTAL
Just like on Purim, we respond to the inner and outer spiritual attack of our arch-enemy-Amalek, transforming his trait of seeing that all is coincidental, by seeing that, to the contrary, nothing is coincidental, so too now reveal Hashem as being the engineer and Prime cause of all that happens to you in every detail of your life (inside of you and out).
7. AMALEK = DOUBT [SAFEIK]
EMUNA CLARITY (ATEM AIDAI\YOU ARE MY TESTIFIERS)
Just like on Purim , we respond to the inner and outer spiritual attack of our arch-enemy-Amalek, transforming his trait of seeing that all is doubtful (especially Hashem’s felt presence), by testifying to the contrary, that all is absolutely clear G-dliness, so too now make a list of your inner doubts, and for each one, reach down deep and find that ‘knowing’ place, and turn all those doubts into ‘knowings,’similarly find and reveal G-d where He’s hiding in all aspects of your life.
8. AMALEK=COOLING DOWN [KRIRUT]
ENTHUSIASM
Just like on Purim, we respond to the inner and outer spiritual attack of our arch-enemy-Amalek , transforming his trait of seeing that all is ‘ho-hum’ - lacking enthusiasm, by seeing that, to the contrary, all of life and the Service of Hashem is full of enthusiasm and excitement, so too now even if you have to ‘fake it till you make it," transform as much of your life and your Service of Hashem into an overflowing wellspring of excitement and enthusiasm.
9. AMALEK= DISCONNECTION [KERI] ALL IS INTERCONNECTED
Just like on Purim, we respond to the inner and outer spiritual attack of our arch-enemy-Amalek, transforming his trait of seeing that all is haphazard, chaotic and disconnected, by seeing that, to the contrary, everything is interconnected, so too now search for the inter-connections between seeming haphazard, non connected events of your life (until you begin to see how everything is united and amazingly interconnected). Also see how when Hashem closes one door in your life, he opens another one (or sometimes many other ones in it’s place).
10. KOL ZE AINENU SHAVE LI/ALL OF THIS ISN’T WORTH IT [AS LONG AS MORDECHAI ISN’T BOWING TO ME]REFUSING TO BOW Just like on Purim, in the Story of Esther, the Evil Haman, who was temporarily lifted to fame and power, could not enjoy it at all so long as his nemesis-Mordechai the Jew-refused to bow to him and recognize him, so too now identify non G-dly, non-complete self-expressing compromising choices that you are pressured to make in life, and find the courage inside of yourself to not ‘bow’ to the pressure, and not settle for anything less than the All-ing, G-ding choices
TAPPING INTO THE INFINITY FACTOR POETRY OF PURIM
Dear seekers of the endless flow----feel the flow of light that is beginning to seep into your soul---on these days of paisley print multi-colored double doses of everything ------and so many other things to occupy our bodies and souls -------from here until we just don't know anymore -----catch it while you can before the time fades away into memory ----subtle hints of history dance around our imagination with stories that reveal and conceal with equal intensity----showing us that nothing is happen-stance----it will outlast our lifetimes and all others to the end of time and beyond ----and the golden threads of miraculous memories tug at our collective consciousness histories -----can you feel the mysteries---intensities incarnate---knocking on our consciousness' garden gate---asking us to let it in ----so that we can begin again at this surreal time ------let the wine go in and the secrets come out---the secrets that will reveal who you are and who you can be ------and the bursts of Purim speak ------revelations of the visibility inside of invisibility ---will call into being the deepest yearnings that you ever imagined could possibly be----and the vastness of your imagination will set you on a course beyond space and time---and just one more glass of wine-----at this holy time-----will shine away all the darkness of your life
BURSTS OF PURIM-SPEAK
***and he couldn't sleep
no matter how hard he tried
because the very act of sleep
was what got him into this bind
in the first place
and it was time to shake up the human race
and the lives of one and all hanging in the balance
life and death at the drop of a hat at the toss of a coin
at the whims of some loose cannon and all they can do
is to keep their hopes and eyes
fixed tight on the source of Heaven and Earth
and day and night until they realize
that all the darkness will turn into light
maybe just this once she'll get it right
maybe just this once
her people's light will shine
and no one will ever wonder why
because it's clear to anyone with eyes
and on this
she's willing to stake her life
***and the converging
of all the many-splendored
details of tales new and old
and the emerging of the
grandest story ever told
is the story of our lives
it's the key to see how all reality
is only a series of circumstances
seemingly chance occurrences
but listen closer cuz the King
is hiding behind the screen
and speaking to you and me
intimately letting us know
what we need to do
and where we need to be
and the story goes on and on
but we have to listen
carefully when you knowthat every word will show you
who you are and where you must go
SHE WILL LIFT YOU ABOVE THE STARS
***when you seek her out
like you seek out the greatest treasures
you will find her
***then she will be a part of you
she will be a part of who you are
and how you see
she will show you
how to be
***and she will be the sweetest experience
that you have ever experienced
and when she will call
you will come running
***and she will light you up
and she will set you on fire
and become your only desire
and you will be with her
all day and all night
***and she will lift you
above the stars
and you will be with her forever
and she will reveal to you
the deepest secrets
of life
of love
of the One Above
***and she will protect you
when you walk in dangerous paths
and she will open your eyes
to show you
how to get through
each and every challenge
that comes to you
***and she will save you from death
and she will heal you from sickness
and she will help you help others
and she will open up your essence
***she is all you'll ever need
and all you'll ever want
she will plant inside you
the ancient seed
of eternity
and Infinity
FIND INSIDE OF YOURSELF, THE YEARNING
***Find inside of yourself, the yearning
---the great yearning to be born
---to be a brand new ,
pure, unhindered, fully expressed, unlimited being
—a being that is constantly & primally
in a state of expansive consciousness
—a state of being
where life is full of pleasure and meaning
and authenticity
and G-dliness
and love for everyone ……..
***Now draw this yearning
into every cell in your being
---draw it into yourself
with such impact
until it’s almost unbearable
---and apply this unbearable yearning
for primal consciousness
to everything in your life
that is out of sync---even partially…..
***And with all of your heart---
and in as much detail
as you are able to express
---cast away
all that which has held you back
-----and then, like a new born child---
step into G-d’s infinite loving embrace
, knowing that you are well on your way
back to where you originally came from
and always yearned to return to…….
SEEING RIGHT THROUGH INVISIBILITY
inside of invisibility
lives a potential visibility
with the capability to be seen
in between the lines
accessed through the subconscious mind's
hyper receptivity with meta- perceptivity
and hyper sensitivity forging a bond
a sort of magic wand
with that which is meant to be
if you'd only stop to see
that which can only be seen
with a healthy belief
in your intrinsic invincibility
or at the very least relentless intensity
that won't refuse to just let things be
until you begin to see
right through invisibility
into it's visibility:
SEE THE VASTNESS
***See the vastness
of what there is to see
[that is normally not seen]
***See the vastness
of the normally overlooked gifts
that people give you
***See the vastness
of wisdom accessible to you
that you normally overlook
*** See the vastness
of coping tools
that you constantly create
***See the vastness
of salvations that Hashem sends you
all the time
***See the vastness
of guidance that G-d constantly
sends to you
***See the vastness
of love that you have in your heart
[usually unexpressed]
*** See the vastness
of experiences and life lessons
that you have experienced
*** See the vastness
of esoteric energies, angels, soul stirrings
calling to you
***See the vastness
of as yet untapped influences
that you can send out
THE POETRY OF THE MINDFULNESS OF NOT KNOWING Dear knowers that you don't really know …..welcome to the land of ad d'lo yada---until you know that you don't really know---all that you know---you probably don't know at all-----and this illusive graspability ---this eternal controversy ------as to whetherthere is true clarity ---when we truly close our eyes to see---that life just isn't what you thought it was meant to be-----and the infinite silence speaks with authority …..and my anonymous posterity will testify ultimately -----but I do know one thing---that this not knowing drives me to want to know everything------and the time is coming when all the World will only want to know about His Majesty-----and one and all will be waiting anxiously to catch a glimpse and See Him when He doesn't hide His Divinity from the like of you and me------because we know that if we were able to remove the veil just for a split second ---and peek into the root of our being---the we would be seeing an effervescent unified Being at the root of all of reality
KNOWING MYSELF
*Just when I think
I know myself
Just when I think
I'm on it
I know what I want
I know what direction to take
I know what battles to wage
I know where I come up short
I become humbled
I lose my bearings
I discover the
as yet undiscovered me
*and when this door opens up
another door of mystery
opens in it's wake
and another a new neural pathway
has opened up a pathway
called-'Who am I'?
*and I walk down that path
and take a look around
I see freedom
I see endless possibility
I see a reconnecting
to my roots
I see me
as others see me
I see me
as G-d sees me
I see me
in the past , present and future
I see new sides of me
[unchartered territory]
I see that not knowing myself leads
to a whole new
and brilliant knowing of myself
I DON'T KNOW I don't know who you REALLY are I don't know who I REALLY am I don't know what is waiting for me today I don't know why Gd does what He does I don't know what happened before this lifetime I don't know what will happen after this lifetime I don't know the deeper meanings of what I learn I don't know why, when, where , who and what I don't know why things happen exactly the way they do I do know one thing--not knowing ---drives me to want to know always in all ways
A NOTE TO MY ANONYMOUS POSTERITY I want to share with you my beloved mystery child my bright-eyed & bushy-tailed lover of the unknown and wild I am an explorer at heart I cannot teach you anything unless I first become the student I cannot yet express my essence to you for I truly don't know who you are
so instead, I will speak to my inner self to my heart to my soul and hope that the words that inspire me touch upon the essence of humanity and thereby inspire you too Maybe the truest thing I can say about me my true legacy is that life for me is simply a mystery so I actually have no clue who I am---or you and from this place I can best share with you the essence of who I am and maybe be able to touch upon who you are too
THE MINDFULNESS OF NOT KNOWING ***from the unknowing eternity of the infinite silence ***from the illusive graspability of the unknowable silence ***from the impossible precipice that can never be reached ***from the unending darkness of the other side ***from the inescapable birthing into a whole new existence ***from the intangible wisdom that I cannot fathom ***from the insatiable desire to know what I cannot know; I reach out to you-- the All Knowing One and together with everyone we seek to know You even if it's the only thing that we will ever do for the rest of time
GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT *** 'tell the children of Israel that my name is 'I will be' tell them to wait for me tell them that this is the way that will set them free good things come to those who wait ***no need to complicate it may not be happening now but trust me it will somehow when a person knows that all that happens is for their best then they can wait and let it all go and toss up all of the rest to the One who knows what's the best way to go and when the time is right they will not need to hesitate because they will know that good things come to those who wait *** step into Arich Anpin Bring Arich anpin inside of you and see that there is not anything that you can't do and to you I will confide that the patience that you will find inside will always show you how to come through good things come to those who wait
*on this you can meditate on this you can contemplate because this is the golden gate this is the way' to elevate your life to be at one with the Divine all the time be open to the openness--infinite receptivity, open to the blind dark places, pure receptivity, open to the infinite and duality's oneness, and trust that this is the best place to be and you never need to worry if you will be too early or too late because good things come to those who wait
A few PURIM POETRY BURSTS
Dear seekers of the endless flow----feel the flow of light that is beginning to seep into your soul---on these days of paisley print multi-colored double doses of everything ------and so many other things to occupy our bodies and souls -------from here until we just don't know anymore -----catch it while you can before the time fades away into memory ----subtle hints of history dance around our imagination with stories that reveal and conceal with equal intensity----showing us that nothing is happen-stance----it will outlast our lifetimes and all others to the end of time and beyond ----and the golden threads of miraculous memories tug at our collective consciousness histories -----can you feel the mysteries---intensities incarnate---knocking on our consciousness' garden gate---asking us to let it in ----so that we can begin again at this surreal time ------let the wine go in and the secrets come out---the secrets that will reveal who you are and who you can be ------and the bursts of Purim speak ------revelations of the visibility inside of invisibility ---will call into being the deepest yearnings that you ever imagined could possibly be----and the vastness of your imagination will set you on a course beyond space and time---and just one more glass of wine-----at this holy time-----will shine away all the darkness of your life
MEGILLA
Dear children of the ancient story---look inside of the words and listen to what your ancestors have heard—and what you can still hear---year after year ---the Megilla story—a classic story of the glory of overcoming impossibilities----but upon deeper reflection—the real intention is that this is your personal story –here and now-----and despite G-d's Holy name not being revealed in it even once---it's all the same to us---because G-d is peeking through the ups and downs and the topsy turvy turn-arounds---and letting us know that His compassion and His glory abounds—all around us—it can be found by every one of us---at the heart of our own story—all the time—look in between the lines and you will be sure to find Him there smiling at you ---Divine poetry at all times
DAWN
[**the phenomenon of Queen Esther the-Ayelet Hashachar**]
Dear children of the dawn---the darkest hour seems to be upon us ----the light of salvation seems to be just beyond us----but the promise that we've been promised –is that we can grasp this light –no matter how far it has gotten from us---and this is a promise that will never go away---a promise that though the darkest hour is just before the dawn----the dawn nevertheless will unfold as a brand new day---it is the stage of the eternal Purim play---it is the return to our root-guarantee---that turns Purn into the highest day that ever was or will ever be in all of HIStory---it's the promise that no matter how far we fall---G-d is always here to catch us all
THE BITTER SCREAM
[**'..and Mordechai let out a great and bitter scream..'*]
Dear children of the night –know this ---the multitude of haters who seek to make misery of your lives—they all will melt away by the warmth of the supernal light ---and despite what people say and despite evidence to the contrary---our light will never fade away---but One thing I do need to say is ---that to activate this eternal dream---you must begin the process by shouting a long and bitter scream---a scream that comes from the deepness of your life ----a scream that transcends all the evil schemes that seem to surround you day and night ---and just like in the Egyptian Exodus story ---and just like in the original Purim story ---G-d will hear your scream—just like He heard Mordechai's bitter scream---and then He will set into motion—everything ---the healing potion that will redeem you everytime---because He really hears your scream---and this is the first significant thing ---the initiating thing---the liberation thing---the most important thing---so scream SCREAM!!!----and everything else that has goodness and ultimate meaning is sure to follow
LIBERATING ALL THOSE SOULS
[**..in a mind state of 'not knowing' we can unwittingly liberate very high trapped souls..**]
***deep inside of our beings
there lies a world
repressed
and hidden from
consciousness
the deepest fears
are kept at bay here
the realizations
of pain and dark
temptation
lay hidden away here
the ability to see
and to unravel
the secret codes
of all the mysteries
are stored away here
those souls
who have no where else to go
stay chained up here.....
***and on one day
of the year
in a state of
complete
comatose
inebriation
without any
awareness
of
who or what
or how or when
we can almost accidentally
slip in
and in a state
of the most profound
not knowing
we can recite the counter intuitive words
that otherwise we would never make heard --
boldly showing this dark kingdom
that we're coming in
and in this sin-less state
we can liberate
all those souls
who would otherwise
have no other way out
and then we're free
to pass out
with a smile
at the tips of our
unconscious lips
WINE GOES IN SECRETS COME OUT
[**the numerical value of 'yayin'—ie..'wine'-- is 70—which is the numerical value of 'sod'—ie..'secret'---thus---wine goes in and secrets come out**]
***wine goes in secrets come out **the words we are able to convey on any given day are very often not what we really want to say **it was most likely meant to be that way to get us to think twice or three times what it is that we really want to say **but sometimes there is a better way a way which avoids the synapses of time of small mind-ed-ness that seems to plague us so much of the time **what I have in mind is wine that's right.... wine sometimes it helps you cut to the chase stop the games say what you mean to say at least on those special days **but even better than this is the feeling of bliss when you know that the dormant sayings that have been hibernating in your brain without knowing how to express them again are found hiding inside a cup of wine and all you have to do to get them to come out is to drink and then drink again because when wine goes in secrets come out
THE INVISIBLE MESSENGER
[**an ode to Our Rebbe Moshe--7th of Adar-Wed. night**]
***one of the messages sent to us constantly by Gd
is to step up selflessly and invisibly
and do what we're meant to do and the deepest , highest messenger
is the invisible Divine messenger
the one who's so unseen that all that can be seen
is the One who sent you
***Moses told G-d to send someone else a person of clear speech a person of fame and authority
a person whose presence will command a redemption
of international and eternal authority
dignity respect and fanfare
Me--what am i? I am nothing.
That's precisely why I want you , Gd told him.
Because when I deliver the people
into freedom and birth
as a nation and My witnesses on earth
, the world will say
it wasn't through a messenger or an Angel..
but rather Me alone in my glory
***see--the idea is like this;
when we let go and let G-d
We become G-d's right hand person
We become a channeler
of the Divine
Our will becomes fused with G-d's
and to become that kind of messenger
is to step up or rather to disappear
enabling Gd
to express to unfold
the perfect becoming
the becoming perfect
of this splendid World
THE POETRY OF THE INNER ESOTERIC ESSENCE OF THE PURIM STORY
Dear esoteric story tellers…..dear passionate glory makers…..the codes of time and space come together in this secret sacred place…… The Divine puppeteer is pulling the strings that bring together everything in splendid fashion …….a sublime light ---so subtle that those who blink might miss it----yet it's so pronounced, that it's radiant fragrance can be detected by the sensitive ones -----especially those who are beginning to detect their inner messianic senses…….and the evil one waits in ambushed readiness---- to pounce upon those who doubt that these esoteric shenanigans make any sense …….and we are a People who come alive in every sense---- and when the tale is told---the very same tale we have heard since the beginning of time—it never grows old ----------it just goes to show that it is much more than plots and subplots here that meet the eye---when it is actually you and I ----who are the true heroes and heroines of this ancient transparent esoteric lullaby----where the deceiver becomes
the receiver ---of all he intended to disrupt----because the Holy one inevitably interrupts the proceedings at just the right time and in just the right way-----"could there be any other way?" ----asks the perennial listener to the master story teller ----before the telling begins to reach whole new dimensions
NAHAFOCH HU REVERSAL OF REALITY
'many are the thoughts in man's heart
but the counsel of G-d will stand'
G-d had other plans;
a complete turnaround
a reversal of what is thought to be the natural order
because when we drink the wine
in the right way
at the right time
we will be able to find
that the secret of life
the secret of our souls
the secret of the seventys
is to know that we must strive to know all
but just beyond 7 is 8
and that is great
and just beyond seventy
the 'all' that we know
begins to disintegrate
and therefore
the more that we know
that we really don't know
[even what we seem to know]
The more that we can let it all go
and let the One Above
lead us down the road of life in love endless love
LIBERATING ALL THOSE SOULS
***deep inside of our beings
there lies a world repressed
and hidden from consciousness
the deepest fears are kept at bay here
the realizations of pain and dark temptation
lay hidden away here
the ability to see and to unravel
the secret codes of all the mysteries
are stored away here
those souls who have no where else to go
stay chained up here.....
***and on one day of the year
in a state of complete comatose inebriation
without any awareness
of who or what or how or when
we can almost accidentally slip in
and in a state of the most profound
not knowing
we can recite the counter intuitive words
that otherwise we would never make heard –
boldly showing
this dark kingdom
that we're coming in
and in this sin-less state
we can liberate
all those souls
who would otherwise
have no other way out
and then we're free to pass out
with a smile
at the tips
of our unconscious lips
READING THE ANCIENT STORY
**reading the ancient story full of suspense and glory
re-interpreted again and again
to show it's endless life applications
'and shed light and revelation
on how it's actually the story of our own lives
**and so we dive in deeper and deeper
year after year
and when we read it,
the lights hidden deep inside it,
all come to life
and cast an aura of light
the likes of which will not be otherwise seen
all the rest of the days of our lives
**and we must try to capture this sublime light
with gifts from our hearts
to open up other hearts
and with an elevation of the spirit
to allow us to peek into rarified portals
that we may never otherwise see
and to masquerade the real and non real parts of our beings
portraying to all who reach out
to see what they cannot otherwise see
**and thereby set ourselves free
to somehow taste of this banquet of impossible reality
on this day
and the whole year long
whenever we sing
the special song
that recalls this ancient story's place
in our day to day journey through space
and time down the mystery avenue
of this awesome life
HE SEES THINGS DIFFERENTLY
**the supernal worlds in their patterns
of high and low
and back and forth
and connection and disconnection
were the object of attention
of the wicked ones
in their attempt to direct the forces of fate
in such a way
that the forces of light
would have no way to escape
**and such are the designs
of the black magic practitioners
from the other side
when they set their eyes
on our downfall time after time
but just in the nick of time
the Holy One Blessed be He
from His benevolent hidden holy place
casts his eyes on their evil designs
right in the nick of time
and though these conniving sorcerers
knew how to manipulate the way
the Universe operates
The Holy One sees it all
in a different way
PURIM POETRY
WINE GOES IN SECRETS COME OUT
***wine goes in secrets come out
**the words we are able to convey on any given day
are very often not what we really want to say
**it was most likely meant to be that way
to get us to think twice or three times what it is
that we really want to say
**but sometimes there is a better way
a way which avoids the synapses of time
of small mind-ed-ness
that seems to plague us so much of the time
**what I have in mind is wine
that's right.... wine
sometimes it helps you cut to the chase
stop the games
say what you mean to say
at least on those special days
**but even better than this is the feeling of bliss
when you know that the dormant sayings
that have been hibernating in your brain
without knowing how to express them again
are found hiding inside a cup of wine
and all you have to do to get them to come out
is to drink
and then drink again
because when wine goes
in secrets come out
YOU HIDE YOUR FACE
You hide your Face We can't find you anywhere
You show your Face When we believe you're there
You hide your Face We are stripped of any sensation
You show your Face Inside the Letters of Creation
You hide your Face There's noone who can soothe
You show your Face In each and every move
You hide your Face We go looking for you near and far
You show your Face the more you're hidden the closer you are
You hide your Face We are numb --there is no feeling
You show your Face Hidden inside our pain is your healing
You hide your Face We play a game of hide and seek
You show your Face to the believers --to the humble and the meek
You hide your Face We walk in fear-we can't find you anywhere
You show your Face We are fearless when we know you are there
A PURIM PRAYER
Ribbono Shel Olam Master of the Universe
I sit here in your awesome presence On this Awesome day
The more that I contemplate The magnificent Grace
Of your Holy Face
The More I see you
In Your Hiding All over the Place
On this sublime day
It's not us who come to your habitation
It is You Who comes to visit us In the midst of our celebration
To those with eyes to see
You show yourself in every aspect Of our reality
At the beginning and end of words
In all the sights we see
And all the sounds that are heard
In the smiles of beautiful babies
In the yesses no-s and maybes
Of those we reach out to
It's really all You
And that's all that I want to do
All day long
Is to play Hide and seek with You
It's the only thing that rings true
There is nothing else That I'd rather do
There is no-one else in my World but You
And just before I sink into Unconsciousness
I do want You to know this;
I want to say thank You
For every breath that you allow me to breathe
For every sight that You allow me to see
For every feeling that You allow me to feel
For coming through for me every time
THE TREE OF LIFE
***The young seeker knows
that every word
includes all others
and that every word
has endless depth
and so ---never stops
seeking
revealing
***The illuminated Soul
lights up the way
in the dead of night
for all to see clearly
for all to proceed calmly
confidently
***The one with the constant smile
unattached to the things of this world
is treated constantly
to the deepest secrets
sharing them
with those
who can see
***The true listener
in pristine receptivity
hears in between the lines
of the book of life----
what was
what is
and what will be
*** The one who climbs
the Tree of Life
has no fear
of the unknown
or of the brokenness ---
and brings down
the fruits of eternity
wrapped up in simplicity
for all to see
A FEW GATEWAYS TO PARADISE
Dear humble seekers of the way to get back to the Garden….to walk straight through the separation and the polarization and immerse yourselves with heart and soul into Eden and turn it all into One again …She waits anxiously for you from within and from without …and she told me to tell you how much she misses you and awaits your reunion …and some poetry perhaps can show you which road to go on….or at least which roads to avoid to get there
WHAT IS PURIM??
[an MMM spontaneous perpective]
***Purim is a very holy day.
***Purim is lemalah, lemalah mi derech hatevah Above, Above nature .
***Purim comes after all the hope is lost.
***Purim is Atik Yamin.
Purim is a shift in making ourselves, into a whole new way of seeing. Purim is the parting of the red sea. Purim is making things happen that otherwise couldn’t be. Purim is Esther saying kaasher avaditi avaditi, if I am lost, I am lost, I give up my reality, I give up this world and the next world. Purim is macheni …. Moshe Rabeynu saying, wipe me out, wipe me out if you are not going to forgive these people, blot me out of Your book. Purim is chezkiyahu Hamelech.[King Ezekiel] Saying that though there is absolutely no hope in this situation Even if there is a sharp sword at the throat of a person ready to put them away, We don’t stop hoping for a better day.
***Purim is a time that is so high, so deep,
that even when all of the other hagim [Holidays]
and all the other sepharim [Holy Books] will no longerbe around-- Purim will be around.
***Purim is like Yom, Kipurim or rather--Yom Kippurim is like Purim [Yom {ki= like} Purim] These 2 very different holy of holy days converge; Just like we were forgiven and received the Torah on Yom Kipur so too on Purim. On the night following Yom Kipur we have a big seudah [meal] following a fast day before the day,of Purim we have a fast before the big seudah on Purim day.
***Purim is renewed receiving of the Torah out of love ...When a person says that I received the Torah out of love as we did and do on Purim, , all that they did wrong in the past becomes merit, becomes light, becomes joy, becomes a place for them to be And they completely change reality.
***Purim is reading Megilat Esther, revealing the hidden dimension,....Purim is opening up those hidden dimensions that wouldn’t otherwise have a way to reveal themselves, to show themselves. In the midst of a hidden reality, the light peeks in and we catch it. If you are open if you're completely mevutal- in a selfless place of receiving -- That light opens up for you a whole new reality. A place above above nature, a place of atik yamin,
***Purim is a place of kaasher avadati, avadati-- a A place of if i'm lost . i'm lost A place where a person never gives up, no matter what the situation , whatever will be , he\ she knows there is a little portal beyond that place, a portal of a miraculous reality, A portal of a transformative reality, a portal of a passionate reality
***Purim is a place of wiping out our arch enemy—Amalek---where our passion destroys our coldness, where our clarity of providence seeing overcomes our seeing that all is happenstance….where our seeing that all is connected wipes out our scattered seeing of reality
PURIM ESSENCE POINT MEDITATIONS
1A. KOL HAPOSHEIT YADO/ALL WHO EXTEND THEIR HAND
ASK FOR WHATEVER YOU WANT
Just like on Purim, anyone who extends their hand in prayer to Heaven receives whatever they ask for, so too now begin to ask for all the good things that you need and want in your life
1B. KOL HAPOSHEIT YADO../ALL WHO EXTEND THEIR HAND
GIVE UNCONDITIONALLY
Just like on Purim , anyone who extends their hand to receive charity from you receives it no matter who they are, so too now practice giving of yourself freely and unconditionally even in non-financial areas.
2A. MEGILLAT ESTHER/REVEALING THE HIDDEN
MASKS
Just like on Purim, the story of Esther teaches us that all the seeming non-G-dly characters and adventures are really all the revelation of G-d, and we commemorate this by wearing masks on Purim (reminding us that the Hand of G-d works through the masked characters and situations), so too now find all the hidden characters and desires inside of yourself, that for various reasons normally don’t get recognized, and allow them to come out and express themselves and demonstrate their important G-dly role in your total personality.
3. NICHNAS YAYIN, YOTZEI SOD/WINE GOES IN TRUTH COMES OUT
DEEPEST TRUTH
Just like on Purim, we get drunk on wine, and the Hebrew numerical values of yayin/wine and Sod/secret are equal to each other (70), showing that the wine brings out our deepest secret truths, so too now (even without the wine) practice reaching deep down inside of yourself to find and reveal your deepest truths.
4. AD DLO YADA/UNTIL YOU DON’T KNOW
NOT KNOWING
Just like on Purim, we are commanded to drink until we don’t the difference between good (‘Blessed is Mordechai) and evil (‘Cursed is Haman’), so too now, even without being drunkc ontemplate all of those areas of life that you just don’t know, and accept with happiness this ‘not knowing’ realm, both as a liberating place to be in and of itself (by knowing that what you know, you really don’t know), as well as a way to begin to know that what you don’t yet know.
5. V’NAHAFOCH HU/AND IT WILL BE A TURNAROUND
AMAZING IRONY HUMOUR
Just like on Purim, we see that the events of the story of Esther showed us that exactly the opposite of what was supposed to happen to us (a genocidem G-d forbid) really happened (an incredible miraculous redemption), so too now marvel at all of the amazing turnarounds of your past, present and projected future.
6. AMALEK= COINCIDENCE [MIKRE]
NOTHING IS COINCIDENTAL
Just like on Purim, we respond to the inner and outer spiritual attack of our arch-enemy-Amalek, transforming his trait of seeing that all is coincidental, by seeing that, to the contrary, nothing is coincidental, so too now reveal Hashem as being the engineer and Prime cause of all that happens to you in every detail of your life (inside of you and out).
7. AMALEK = DOUBT [SAFEIK]
EMUNA CLARITY (ATEM AIDAI\YOU ARE MY TESTIFIERS)
Just like on Purim , we respond to the inner and outer spiritual attack of our arch-enemy-Amalek, transforming his trait of seeing that all is doubtful (especially Hashem’s felt presence), by testifying to the contrary, that all is absolutely clear G-dliness, so too now make a list of your inner doubts, and for each one, reach down deep and find that ‘knowing’ place, and turn all those doubts into ‘knowings,’similarly find and reveal G-d where He’s hiding in all aspects of your life.
8. AMALEK=COOLING DOWN [KRIRUT]
ENTHUSIASM
Just like on Purim, we respond to the inner and outer spiritual attack of our arch-enemy-Amalek , transforming his trait of seeing that all is ‘ho-hum’ - lacking enthusiasm, by seeing that, to the contrary, all of life and the Service of Hashem is full of enthusiasm and excitement, so too now even if you have to ‘fake it till you make it," transform as much of your life and your Service of Hashem into an overflowing wellspring of excitement and enthusiasm.
9. AMALEK= DISCONNECTION [KERI] ALL IS INTERCONNECTED
Just like on Purim, we respond to the inner and outer spiritual attack of our arch-enemy-Amalek, transforming his trait of seeing that all is haphazard, chaotic and disconnected, by seeing that, to the contrary, everything is interconnected, so too now search for the inter-connections between seeming haphazard, non connected events of your life (until you begin to see how everything is united and amazingly interconnected). Also see how when Hashem closes one door in your life, he opens another one (or sometimes many other ones in it’s place).
10. KOL ZE AINENU SHAVE LI/ALL OF THIS ISN’T WORTH IT [AS LONG AS MORDECHAI ISN’T BOWING TO ME]REFUSING TO BOW Just like on Purim, in the Story of Esther, the Evil Haman, who was temporarily lifted to fame and power, could not enjoy it at all so long as his nemesis-Mordechai the Jew-refused to bow to him and recognize him, so too now identify non G-dly, non-complete self-expressing compromising choices that you are pressured to make in life, and find the courage inside of yourself to not ‘bow’ to the pressure, and not settle for anything less than the All-ing, G-ding choices
TAPPING INTO THE INFINITY FACTOR POETRY OF PURIM
Dear seekers of the endless flow----feel the flow of light that is beginning to seep into your soul---on these days of paisley print multi-colored double doses of everything ------and so many other things to occupy our bodies and souls -------from here until we just don't know anymore -----catch it while you can before the time fades away into memory ----subtle hints of history dance around our imagination with stories that reveal and conceal with equal intensity----showing us that nothing is happen-stance----it will outlast our lifetimes and all others to the end of time and beyond ----and the golden threads of miraculous memories tug at our collective consciousness histories -----can you feel the mysteries---intensities incarnate---knocking on our consciousness' garden gate---asking us to let it in ----so that we can begin again at this surreal time ------let the wine go in and the secrets come out---the secrets that will reveal who you are and who you can be ------and the bursts of Purim speak ------revelations of the visibility inside of invisibility ---will call into being the deepest yearnings that you ever imagined could possibly be----and the vastness of your imagination will set you on a course beyond space and time---and just one more glass of wine-----at this holy time-----will shine away all the darkness of your life
BURSTS OF PURIM-SPEAK
***and he couldn't sleep
no matter how hard he tried
because the very act of sleep
was what got him into this bind
in the first place
and it was time to shake up the human race
and the lives of one and all hanging in the balance
life and death at the drop of a hat at the toss of a coin
at the whims of some loose cannon and all they can do
is to keep their hopes and eyes
fixed tight on the source of Heaven and Earth
and day and night until they realize
that all the darkness will turn into light
maybe just this once she'll get it right
maybe just this once
her people's light will shine
and no one will ever wonder why
because it's clear to anyone with eyes
and on this
she's willing to stake her life
***and the converging
of all the many-splendored
details of tales new and old
and the emerging of the
grandest story ever told
is the story of our lives
it's the key to see how all reality
is only a series of circumstances
seemingly chance occurrences
but listen closer cuz the King
is hiding behind the screen
and speaking to you and me
intimately letting us know
what we need to do
and where we need to be
and the story goes on and on
but we have to listen
carefully when you knowthat every word will show you
who you are and where you must go
SHE WILL LIFT YOU ABOVE THE STARS
***when you seek her out
like you seek out the greatest treasures
you will find her
***then she will be a part of you
she will be a part of who you are
and how you see
she will show you
how to be
***and she will be the sweetest experience
that you have ever experienced
and when she will call
you will come running
***and she will light you up
and she will set you on fire
and become your only desire
and you will be with her
all day and all night
***and she will lift you
above the stars
and you will be with her forever
and she will reveal to you
the deepest secrets
of life
of love
of the One Above
***and she will protect you
when you walk in dangerous paths
and she will open your eyes
to show you
how to get through
each and every challenge
that comes to you
***and she will save you from death
and she will heal you from sickness
and she will help you help others
and she will open up your essence
***she is all you'll ever need
and all you'll ever want
she will plant inside you
the ancient seed
of eternity
and Infinity
FIND INSIDE OF YOURSELF, THE YEARNING
***Find inside of yourself, the yearning
---the great yearning to be born
---to be a brand new ,
pure, unhindered, fully expressed, unlimited being
—a being that is constantly & primally
in a state of expansive consciousness
—a state of being
where life is full of pleasure and meaning
and authenticity
and G-dliness
and love for everyone ……..
***Now draw this yearning
into every cell in your being
---draw it into yourself
with such impact
until it’s almost unbearable
---and apply this unbearable yearning
for primal consciousness
to everything in your life
that is out of sync---even partially…..
***And with all of your heart---
and in as much detail
as you are able to express
---cast away
all that which has held you back
-----and then, like a new born child---
step into G-d’s infinite loving embrace
, knowing that you are well on your way
back to where you originally came from
and always yearned to return to…….
SEEING RIGHT THROUGH INVISIBILITY
inside of invisibility
lives a potential visibility
with the capability to be seen
in between the lines
accessed through the subconscious mind's
hyper receptivity with meta- perceptivity
and hyper sensitivity forging a bond
a sort of magic wand
with that which is meant to be
if you'd only stop to see
that which can only be seen
with a healthy belief
in your intrinsic invincibility
or at the very least relentless intensity
that won't refuse to just let things be
until you begin to see
right through invisibility
into it's visibility:
SEE THE VASTNESS
***See the vastness
of what there is to see
[that is normally not seen]
***See the vastness
of the normally overlooked gifts
that people give you
***See the vastness
of wisdom accessible to you
that you normally overlook
*** See the vastness
of coping tools
that you constantly create
***See the vastness
of salvations that Hashem sends you
all the time
***See the vastness
of guidance that G-d constantly
sends to you
***See the vastness
of love that you have in your heart
[usually unexpressed]
*** See the vastness
of experiences and life lessons
that you have experienced
*** See the vastness
of esoteric energies, angels, soul stirrings
calling to you
***See the vastness
of as yet untapped influences
that you can send out
THE POETRY OF THE MINDFULNESS OF NOT KNOWING Dear knowers that you don't really know …..welcome to the land of ad d'lo yada---until you know that you don't really know---all that you know---you probably don't know at all-----and this illusive graspability ---this eternal controversy ------as to whetherthere is true clarity ---when we truly close our eyes to see---that life just isn't what you thought it was meant to be-----and the infinite silence speaks with authority …..and my anonymous posterity will testify ultimately -----but I do know one thing---that this not knowing drives me to want to know everything------and the time is coming when all the World will only want to know about His Majesty-----and one and all will be waiting anxiously to catch a glimpse and See Him when He doesn't hide His Divinity from the like of you and me------because we know that if we were able to remove the veil just for a split second ---and peek into the root of our being---the we would be seeing an effervescent unified Being at the root of all of reality
KNOWING MYSELF
*Just when I think
I know myself
Just when I think
I'm on it
I know what I want
I know what direction to take
I know what battles to wage
I know where I come up short
I become humbled
I lose my bearings
I discover the
as yet undiscovered me
*and when this door opens up
another door of mystery
opens in it's wake
and another a new neural pathway
has opened up a pathway
called-'Who am I'?
*and I walk down that path
and take a look around
I see freedom
I see endless possibility
I see a reconnecting
to my roots
I see me
as others see me
I see me
as G-d sees me
I see me
in the past , present and future
I see new sides of me
[unchartered territory]
I see that not knowing myself leads
to a whole new
and brilliant knowing of myself
I DON'T KNOW I don't know who you REALLY are I don't know who I REALLY am I don't know what is waiting for me today I don't know why Gd does what He does I don't know what happened before this lifetime I don't know what will happen after this lifetime I don't know the deeper meanings of what I learn I don't know why, when, where , who and what I don't know why things happen exactly the way they do I do know one thing--not knowing ---drives me to want to know always in all ways
A NOTE TO MY ANONYMOUS POSTERITY I want to share with you my beloved mystery child my bright-eyed & bushy-tailed lover of the unknown and wild I am an explorer at heart I cannot teach you anything unless I first become the student I cannot yet express my essence to you for I truly don't know who you are
so instead, I will speak to my inner self to my heart to my soul and hope that the words that inspire me touch upon the essence of humanity and thereby inspire you too Maybe the truest thing I can say about me my true legacy is that life for me is simply a mystery so I actually have no clue who I am---or you and from this place I can best share with you the essence of who I am and maybe be able to touch upon who you are too
THE MINDFULNESS OF NOT KNOWING ***from the unknowing eternity of the infinite silence ***from the illusive graspability of the unknowable silence ***from the impossible precipice that can never be reached ***from the unending darkness of the other side ***from the inescapable birthing into a whole new existence ***from the intangible wisdom that I cannot fathom ***from the insatiable desire to know what I cannot know; I reach out to you-- the All Knowing One and together with everyone we seek to know You even if it's the only thing that we will ever do for the rest of time
GOOD THINGS COME TO THOSE WHO WAIT *** 'tell the children of Israel that my name is 'I will be' tell them to wait for me tell them that this is the way that will set them free good things come to those who wait ***no need to complicate it may not be happening now but trust me it will somehow when a person knows that all that happens is for their best then they can wait and let it all go and toss up all of the rest to the One who knows what's the best way to go and when the time is right they will not need to hesitate because they will know that good things come to those who wait *** step into Arich Anpin Bring Arich anpin inside of you and see that there is not anything that you can't do and to you I will confide that the patience that you will find inside will always show you how to come through good things come to those who wait
*on this you can meditate on this you can contemplate because this is the golden gate this is the way' to elevate your life to be at one with the Divine all the time be open to the openness--infinite receptivity, open to the blind dark places, pure receptivity, open to the infinite and duality's oneness, and trust that this is the best place to be and you never need to worry if you will be too early or too late because good things come to those who wait
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